Have you ever read the passage in Hebrews 12 where it talks about God's discipline?
"...My son, do not despise the chastening of the Lord, Nor be discouraged when you
are rebuked by Him; For whom the Lord loves He chastens, And chastens every son
He receives. If you endure chastening, God deals with you as sons; for what son is
there whom a father does not chasten?"
Hebrews 12: 5-6
I recently received some discipline from God's hand. I cried, it was painful. It hurt, it smarted; I felt awful. But quickly now, I thank Him for it. You see, I have known good teaching from the Word but I chose to ignore it and tried to go it on my own. God had His hand on me and had to use His shepherd's crook to get me back on His path again.
Now I can move on again. Not look back with regrets but move forward in His plan for my life. How about you? Have you made a mistake that you feel was disastrous to your spiritual life? There is always, always recovery, as long as you are breathing.
Look at what Paul says in Philippians. I love these verses!
"Brethren, I do not count myself to have apprehended, but ONE thing I do, FORGETTING
those things which are behind and reaching forward to those things which are ahead,
I PRESS toward the goal for the prize of the UPWARD call of God in Christ Jesus."
Philippians 3: 13-14
I urge you today, move out from self-condemnation and loathing, enjoy God's forgiveness bought at great cost. If you are His, you are a brand new creature (II Corinthians 5: 17) and your past does NOT define you!